Her name was Theresa and we saw each other quite often. She was friends with my friends so we hung out at sleepovers and dances and such, and we got along pretty well. But I didnt know her that well. She hung herself 2 years ago exactly; she was only in 8th grade. It seriously upset me but I moved on.

Today I was going to go visit her grave with some friends when at the last second I decided I would just stay home. I wasnt in the mood for something as depressing as that. So i called my friend and told her I just didnt feel up for it. It seems horrible to say but I just dont want to have to deal with that. I'm in a good mood today and I like my life right now, and I just dont feel like being all sad and pathetic. I moved on, and I dont think I should let her death get me in a bad mood.

Is it wrong to want to forget about these types of things? I feel as though she's watching down on us and smiling because we all think about her so much, shes a superstar now. Everyone says they were her best friend.

Good to know that if i ever want attention all i have to do is die.

Am I being selfish?